I’m sitting here drinking my wonderful white mocha…mmm….wishing that I had some profound or deep thoughts…but I don’t. lol
The last couple of weeks have been extremely prayer filled because I have been in constant need to refocus my thoughts or my desires…it’s hard! I think the main thing God has been teaching me is that no matter what all goes on around me…it is up to me to choose how I react and whether or not I will choose to have a reaction that is pleasing to God. Naturally my reactions are not always so – therefore I just have to pray myself through each situation and let God change my heart – my attitude – my desires – my everything. Here’s a few instances lately where I have had to really really be intentional about letting God mold my heart:
1. When Obama was elected…I wish I could say that my natural instinct was ‘well no matter what i just need to respect and pray for my president’ – it wasn’t. But through hearing more and more of my spiritual leaders encourage me to feel that way – I have just had to pray for God to make my heart a little more respectful and trusting of His will…and He is and has been faithful.
2. When people in my office treat me like crap because I’m the admin – I have had to pray a lot lately that God would help me to love them despite that…it’s hard…especially when I really just would like to be rude right back…or….ya know…punch them in the face…jk! lol I have to pray through my reaction and let God calm me down and change my heart.
3. When I think I might have found a person who I could potentially be interested in – I have to ask God to stop me right there so that I don’t go too far with my thoughts and hopes – I find myself saying over and over again as I’m praying – ‘May your will be done – no matter what!’ I have to pray for God to slow me down and help me to be patient – even in how I react when people talk to me about that person! I’m a girl – it’s hard! 
So – reactions are important! They say a lot about the heart! I just pray that my heart would be honoring to God and that I would let God make me more and more like the woman He created me to be. That is my desire.
