my heart April 17, 2008

ok so hopefully I will not write like a million posts today but I just found this song in a blog that I wrote in 06 and it is exactly what my prayer is….these are awesome lyrics

Let me be in love with what you love
Let me be more satisfied in you
Forsaking what this world has offered me
I choose to be in love with You

Let me know the peace that’s mine in You
Let me know the joy my heart can see
For I have nothing Lord apart from You
I choose to call on Christ in me

For in the fulness of who You are
I can rest in this place
And giving over this, my journey, Lord
I see nothing but Your face
And i bow down
Humbly i bow down
Humbly i bow down
I bow down

Let me know that You have loved me first
Let me know the weight of my response
For You have long pursued my wandering heart
I choose to glory in the cross

:-) April 17, 2008

How weird that after my last blog right before Bible study………..we talked about marriage. We had a really good discussion! That’s all I’m gonna say about that.

Well, I gotta go….I don’t have much to say right now. Busy night and I hope it will somehow involve The Office….but I doubt we will be done with practice early enough. We shall see.

My goal is to do something today that will bring a little more fame to His Name!

Greater things are still to be done… April 16, 2008

I have just been seeking God lately about where He wants me to go from here. I mean I love my job and am content to stay here for however long He would have me here – but I just really feel like God is stirring up something inside of me that is preparing me for something new. I have just been praying for clear direction and guidance. My heart is in ministry – that’s why I moved to the city - to be a core part of another church plant. God had other plans for me which led me to Freedom Church which I am thankful for. But seriously, I want my life to make a difference for Christ – I want what I do to bring fame to His Name. Maybe God wants to grow me in the small environments before he can give me more…I don’t know. I just am finding myself desiring something greater, more kingdom minded to be a part of – job-wise that is. Until then, I can only trust God and seek His face – He is so beautiful and I am in awe of His love and provision in my life. I don’t know if any of this makes sense to anyone else…I am just kinda pooring out my thoughts. God has just been pointing my thoughts to the future a lot lately in my prayer life - praying about my career path, praying for my husband, praying for guidance and clarity even in the present, etc. …and so it’s got me thinking a lot.

Can I just get mushy and girly for a second….? I don’t know why now of all times in my life, but I have just really felt the need and desire to pray for my husband lately. It’s funny how much you can love someone that you don’t even know yet. But my heart has just been so heavy for him and desiring to meet him. I cannot wait to have someone to love, serve with and take care of….yes take care of – cook for, clean for, rub his feet, show respect to :-) ….that is how much I love him….and I don’t even know who it is yet! lol Obviously I am a true romantic and I love thinking about these things anyways…it’s just so cool to me that God cares about the specific little things. He knows exactly what I need and loved me enough to already pick that perfect person out for me before I was even born. How incredible!

Ok…I’ll stop….lol

I am looking forward to our Bible study tonight. Hopefully there will be no bird-killing this time…haha.

Last thing - I really like it when ppl comment…so if you have something to say….I wanna hear it.  

… April 15, 2008

Today has been an ok day. It’s just been very monotonous and kinda blah. Maybe it’s because the whole office was still so full from dinner last night. Our boss took us to dinner last night as a reward for meeting some specific goals we had for this past month. So, we went to the Melting Pot. It was so so so good! I had only had chocolate fondue before but we had a full coarse meal! It was fun and delicious!

My week is packed once again…tonight – we have the softball game, tomorrow – Bible study, Thursday – band practice, Friday morning- singing at NCCS and then going to work…Friday night is actually free, Saturday – driving to McDonough to do the bass player from Casting Crown’s wife’s hair and also her mom’s and brother’s hair as well AND then Saturday night I am babysitting my baby cousin, and then Sunday we have church of course. Whew….I am tired already!

Well…I better go get ready for the game….we are so going to win!

PASSION 08 April 14, 2008

WOW is the only word I really have for this past weekend. I went to Passion Atlanta at the Gwinett Center – Friday night and all day Saturday. It was AMAZING! The whole weekend was filled with amazing worship and awesome teaching from Louie Giglio and Francis Chan. These two guys did a great job at communicating the heart of Passion and the heart of Christ. As I said in my earlier blog, I have been so excited about church lately that I have not been excited enough about Jesus Christ. This weekend helped me to refocus and refresh my relationship with Christ. All scripture points directly to the work of the Holy Spirit and the fact that everything is done for the glory of God. A lot of times we don’t give the Holy Spirit credit for all the amazing things He does. It’s hard for me to verbalize everything that I learned this weekend. I just know that I am excited for the new things that God is going to teach me. I have finally resurrendered EVERY area of my life to Him and can’t wait to see where He takes me! Here is a link to Louie’s blog from this event. http://www.268blog.blogspot.com/

On another note…I am not exactly sure why I am so excited BUT I am super excited to get to play at my highschool – North Cobb Christian School – on Friday with our band FreedomLive. It will just be so neat to go back after all these years and get to lead these kids to the thrown of God. What an awesome opportunity and responsibility!

I have decided that the next “feast” that I will cook at my house for all my Freedom peeps will be FIESTA style! Which reminds me…this is so random and hilarious to me – I found this unmarked CD in my car yesterday so I put it in to see what was on it (expecting like worship music or Dave Barnes or something)…and what starts playing you ask??? MEXICAN mariachi band music! Where in the WORLD did that come from??? I KNOW I never made a CD like that….anyways…I just laughed out loud in my car (after I went through all the songs).

Tonight was for me… April 10, 2008

Seriously, the Bible study tonight was exactly what God has been dealing with me about in my alone time with Him. It’s so cool how He is just reiterating it in other scriptures as well! It was really cool to hear all the different thoughts, experiences and perspectives too. Once again, I am so thankful for my Freedom friends.

The rest of this week is going to be so crazy busy. I am writing so much now because I know I will not be online all weekend. Tomorrow I am going to the Office Party at Eric’s…fun stuff. Then Friday morning I am driving to Athens to get my sister Lauren and we are going to Passion Atlanta! I am so stinkin excited about Passion! It’s going to be such an awesome and refreshing time of worship and hearing a powerful word from God. So, that is Friday night and all day Saturday. Then I am getting up WAY early to be at Freedom at the crack of dawn to help set up. It will be exhausting but so worth it!

Well, I am up way past my bedtime for work tomorrow. Night night sleep tight and don’t let the bed bugs bite…

I caved in… April 9, 2008

Ok, so I decided that I would start blogging too since everyone and their brother is now.

Can I just say how thankful to God I am for Freedom Church. I had been so burned out with churches and all the junk that goes on in a lot of them – I really just had been searching for a place where I could serve and grow and not have to see all the drama that I have been exposed to being a pastor’s daughter. I could tell you story after story of all the hateful things our past churches have done to my dad and our family. It is SO refreshing to be in a place where I know there is no room for that drama and destruction. God is so evident in Freedom church and He is moving in ways that I feel honored and humbled to be a part of. I am more passionate about Christ than I have been in a long time and it was definitely spurred on by the passion for Christ that you see in all the staff and workers at Freedom Church. I have had to be careful though lately that I make sure that my excitement and passion is directed 100% toward God and not Freedom Church. I have had more fun hanging out and goofing off with all my Freedom church friends, and I am thankful to God for them, but God reminded me this morning that none of this would be taking place if it weren’t for what His Son did for us on the cross. May all the glory go to HIM! For real! Thank you God for what YOU are doing in and through us at Freedom and for allowing us to be a part of this journey.

Well, on a lighter note…I am so proud of our SOFTBALL TEAM! I almost wish we had not beat the other team so badly so that we could have enjoyed an entire game…lol. But still…I give all of you your propers!

Well friends…I need to go be productive. I am looking forward to seeing some of y’all tonight for Bible study and look forward to some awkward silences when Matt has something to say….haha…jk.